Well I went for a job interview yesterday and within half an hour i already knew I had not got the job, felt very disheartened but then what is new, just another slap in the face for me.
Also yesterday I got a tattoo of this design my daughter had made up through her scrapbooking techniques and I added mum, dad and Joe (my brother) the 3 people who have passed away and who have meant so much in my life. I got the tattoo in the middle of my back. To me it is just a small token of the love I had for them. My daughters also got the same tattoo minus the words, one daughter got it on her inside ankle and the other daughter got it on the inside forearm, all of them look so nice.
Not much other news at all, just think I will now just concentrate on getting this house ready for sale after xmas when I put it on the market.
For anyone reading my blog I hope you have a wonderful day.

Finally I have got mums death certificate so now I will be able to put closure on some of the things that need ending. It has taken 6 weeks for this to come out to me when normally it only takes 3 weeks so I really don't know what the problem was with it. Once I got the certificate I straight away rang the solicitor but he was not there and I asked if he would be in at all this week and the receptionist was not sure, so that sounds weird in itself as normally the receptionist would know these things straight away as she is the first point of contact in an office. But god only knows what work places do and think these days. There really isn't much to finalize as the house was put into my name a long time ago now so it is just the bank account to take care of and some shares and that is about it. But it will be nice just to have that all taken care of, just one thing off my mind.
I have just been taking each day as it comes, some days are good and some are bad. The pain and emptiness will always be there but I think I will be able to handle it a bit better as time goes by. When I received the death certificate I realized for sure that mum was gone but I just sat here and tried not to show my daughter the emotions running through me as i am sure both daughters are tired of seeing me the way I have been lately.
Today I have to spend more money, yesterday I had to take the cholrinator and this other thing up to the pool shop and they rang me late yesterday afternoon with the good news, I am up for a new cholrinator as the old one is stuffed and something else is wrong with the other thing (yes you can tell I know a lot about pools) and it is going to cost me near 500 dollars, how wonderful, I can't wait to spend that much money on something I won't get much use out of anyway as after xmas i will be putting this house up for sale. To me it is just a bloody waste of money. Never in my life will i buy a house with a pool, yes they are enjoyable in summer but they cost a bloody lot of money to keep them looking good. I am so over spending money on this pool it isn't funny. I suppose the secret is don't take a water sample up to the pool shop because if you do as sure as hell it will end up costing you money.
And today is grocery shopping day, yayyyyyyyy can't wait, more money on useless items.
Well I think my complaining for today is over, shall go outside now and take my frustrations out in the yard and rake some more leaves up before the guy comes to pick it all up.
So for anyone that reads this, I hope your day is better than mine so take care.